Lennon, Month 1

Dear Lennon,

I really think this could have been the fastest month of my life. You have changed our family in so many ways, and you are SO loved. So far you have been a good girl, and I'm hoping (more like begging/wishing on every star/dreaming every night) that it will continue. It would be hard to have another colicky/gassy baby, but at least I would know more of what to do since I've had two before! You have been sleeping really good at night most nights and going 4 or 5 hours in between eating. We still have you in our room and I'm loving it because daddy kicked your brother and sister our at 3 weeks old. I'm sure we will be moving you soon but we are trying to figure out our monitor situation because Ali still needs one. (She's a trouble maker, your sister!) You are STRONG and already roll to your sides and lift your head up during tummy time. And you are a PRO eater. Keep it up because nursing is my favorite time I get to spend with just the two of us! You had a rough start with jaundice and still have a little yellow-ish tint to your skin and eyes! The doc said it will probably just take a bit longer to leave your system since it got so high. I HATED that you had to get your heal pricked every other day for almost two weeks! But really that was the only time we heard you cry! You do grunt A LOT. It's the cutest thing, and I love all your silly sounds you make.

Your brother and sister absolutely ADORE you. Luke asks if he can look at you multiple times a day and kisses your head 1,000 times. They have been sick this week so I have been keeping you isolated in our bedroom and away from them. They are hating it and really miss ooo-ing and awe-ing over you all day. Ali is still trying to figure out exactly what you do and what's so great about you. She thinks you're cute and says "Awe, Lennon" over and over, but I think she's confused at your lack of activities and playing. ;) I know in a few months she will love rolling and crawling around with you. You will have so much fun together throughout your lives.

From the day we brought you home I have had a hard time wondering if you are our last. It was making it hard to just enjoy your new-ness and live in the moment. So I finally told daddy that we aren't deciding right now. That way, I can just enjoy YOU and not think, "This is the last time..." every time you do anything.

I feel such a special bond with you and never knew my heart could make so much more room for another little girl. I love your scrunchy forehead and the way you turn your head towards my voice. I love your baby breath and your hairy shoulders. I love your dark hair and dark eyes, (and REALLY hope they stay dark like your dad, but you'll be beautiful no matter what). I love your dramatic random screams because they only last 3 seconds and make me laugh. I love watching you explore the world, and listen to all the chaos going on around you. I LOVE your snuggles and hope you continue to snuggle with me forever! I love your little tiny features and your sweet face. You have made me so happy in your short time on earth, and I know my love will only get stronger with each passing day.

Thank you for coming to our family little sis! We couldn't love you more and are so excited to watch you continue to learn and grow.

Love, Mom